So, I quit my job without a new one during a pandemic! Now that I have your attention, I’ll start from the beginning. Things grew stressful at my current job in several ways. Also, I discovered a new passion in healthy lifestyle and wellness education. There were goals and dreams that God placed on my heart signifying the time at my current job ending. So, I looked for a new one. The very next day the state went into lock down and life changed as we knew it.
As March progressed, job posting on Indeed diminished drastically. The uncertainty caused employers to halt their hiring. Changing CDC guidelines heaped chaos on my already stressful work environment. One minute masks were deemed unnecessary. Another moment symptoms of the virus changed to include abdominal pain as well as cough and fever. My coworkers were full of fear due to being high risk or having vulnerable family members at home. As the lead provider, I felt overwhelmed with the responsibility of caring for patients as well as ensuring the safety of my coworkers. It was like being in a pressure cooker about to explode all its contents.
Dissatisfaction set in. With rejection after rejection, I felt trapped at my job. I’d like to say that I carried myself with grace during this season; however, that was not the case. At times, I was short-tempered towards my coworkers. Other moments, I defaulted to worry and anxiety. By the grace of God, I was able to spend time speaking with one of the counselors at my church. She challenged me to remain faithful at my current job as I await the next one. So I did a one eighty and repented for my attitude. I strove to do my job unto the Lord while being hopeful for something better.
I’d like to say things got better with my new, improved attitude; however, they only got worse. Tensions arose at work with coworkers getting sick and clashes with my employer. The job hunt was difficult as there were more applicants than positions. Interviews resulted in me being passed over for another person. One employer canceled an interview hours before and without explanation. Though things looked dark, I sensed a shift in the atmosphere.
This leads me to my first statement. I quit my job without a new one. Now, I’m not going to say that God told me to quit it. Yet soon after quitting, I heard Him say, “Now I’m going to teach you trust”. In ushered the most difficult month of my life. The clock started ticking as I worked my ninety day notice. I decided to fast for a day. During that time, I looked up scriptures on God’s provision. I commanded the devil to release my job. In all honesty, I needed to reach a point of desperation as it led me to rely on God like never before. The day following the fast I had newfound hope. Yet things worsened. In a single day, I received FIVE no responses from potential employers. One employer sent me the rejection email minutes after I applied for the position. Had my time spent fasting been in vain?
Finally, I received a call for an interview! A few days later, another call came for an interview with a second employer. I felt in my spirit that this was it. As I interviewed, my heart filled with excitement. It had all of my desired features! There was an increase in pay, days off during the week, and an employer with a heart for patients and employees. On top of all this, my start date was the day after my notice hereby allowing me to not miss a single paycheck. God is so good!!!
This post was a little long, but I wanted to encourage you. So many are going through their own battles of faith. Let me assure you that God heard when you first prayed. He’s never late! He’s working in you while you wait for the promise. For me, I learned patience and contentment. I trusted even though it looked like nothing was happening. God is in the details! If He’s making you wait, then just know that He’s working them out. Keep standing!
Be encouraged! :)
Written by Christa Martina
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Scripture References: Psalms 138:1-3 (NLT) John 15:7, Philippians 4:19, 2 Cor 9:10, Jeremiah 32:17, Isaiah 46:10 (NLT) , Luke 1:45, Psalms 84:11, 2 Peter 3:9 (NLT)
*Also, I'd recommend Christian counseling. I helps to have someone else's perspective. *
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